Ahhh … Where’s the Net? – 2
Though every time I imagine, reflect or think about an Option 3 implementation, I see nothing but sadness for myself, lost life and going through the motions …
I’m finding that doing the Option 3 act lately is not nearly has difficult as it had been for me …
It seems that once I Decided on Option 1, playing Option 3 got easier …
I’m doing it with more enthusiasm now, people can sense it and are responding,
I’m playing great ex with EX and we’re having fun …
I’m flirting with women all over the place in my disarming, lack of confidence, charming sort of way …
I’m laughing a great deal and am playfully feisty (ask Shaft about the Bit I did in the car on the way to lunch the other day, it’s the hardest I think I ever remember making him laugh) …
And thus …
A conflict has ensued and I think that has played a part in my phunkness …
Because on one hand, I’m not hating, dreading playing Option 3 right now … it’s fun … it’s easy … it makes people happy … and it gives me a lot of opportunity …
But on the other hand, I think I’m not hating, dreading playing Option 3 right now because … I know it’s only temporary.
So there’s a part of my head that says …
yo beaaattchh … see, with the right attitude, you could make Option 3 work and everyone can be happy …
And there there’s another part of my head that says …
yo asshole … it’s only the right attitude, because I know it’s only temporary, one can’t fake an orgasm forever …
So … anyways, I just wanted to clarify that …
Next episode … what role does moving away play in my phunkness?
hi this is really a good apportunity to express what i think thank you
well, okay,
maybe you are a dork,
but you get all the good lines…
🙂
‘xactly !!
It’s so easy to only see the good when you’re recollecting, that you forget the reality.
I’m not forgetting (is that one or two t’s?) reality !! 🙂 And honestly, I sorta expected greater self-doubt that I’m experiencing …
I really don’t consider this reconsidering in any way, because I’m not … I just think it’s interesting to note doubt and second guessing of any sort … yeah, ima dork … I know 🙂
At this, the whole community broke out with loud cries, and even in the night the people wailed.
All the Israelites grumbled against Moses and Aaron, the whole community saying to them, ‘Would that we had died in the land of Egypt, or that here in the desert we were dead! Why is the LORD bringing us into this land only to have us fall by the sword? . . . Would it not be better for us to return to Egypt?’ So they said to one another, ‘Let us appoint a leader and go back to Egypt.'”
as ever,
i could be wrong…
but whenever anyone is on the verge
of a new life,
the old one suddenly looks better than it did…
i think fear/uncertainty is finding expression,
but DO NOT let this stop you…