For The Love Of Gawd … Keep Amy Away From The Nuclear Weapons

Ya know …

I’m an extremely predictable creature of habit.

Really predictable.

So when I go days and days in a row,

Without updating AmyNews.com …

You know something is up.

But what, pray tell?

Well …

Nothing new or different really,

Just the same ol’ problem that I’ve been struggling with for quite a while about my site …

Coupled with real life demands and challenges.

What’s the same ol’ problem ??

Well …

That’s the challenge I have of balancing what I need AmyNews.com for …

A place to vent, reflect and chronicle my transition and life;

While providing a real-life, open and honest history of how I have face my challenges along the way, so others can learn from my successes and mistakes;

When knowing that way many people in my real life are reading the krap that I post.

For those new to the scene,

It’s that last part that causes me the problem. 🙂

I worry that people in my real life will easily ascertain who I’m referring to if I’m anything but extremely vague in sharing positive or negative experiences in my day to day life,

‘Cause I don’t want to unnecessarily breach anyone else’s privacy.

My privacy, well …

I’ve been pretty open about things here, huh kids?

I’m not about to stop now,

But I don’t want any of the vast number of incredibly kewl people who have been kind, supportive and encouraging to me to suffer any negative ramifications from butt-others who feel people like me should never encounter any understanding;

And, I don’t want any of the very few negative encounters I have tarnish anyone’s false image of the person who decides that being a jerk to me is an appropriate form of behavior.

It’s a struggle,

Because at the same time …

Sometimes I really feel the need to vent.

And I also want to share some of the tremendous positive experiences I have.

Not to mention disclose some of my more difficult challenges and frustrations,

So others can learn from my screw-ups.

Oh yeah,

And I do believe it’s my role in life to offer a bit amusement by publicly acknowledging some of the oddness in which I find myself. 🙂

It seems that one of the common traits t-transition related sites have is that after one transitions …

Moves on with their life,

Their site is no longer updated.

Valuable experiences are unfortunately not passed on to others.

I can certainly understand why …

Once you get a life,

The personal need for such a site diminishes in many respects,

The time necessary for its maintainance becomes more challenging to find,

While the need for privacy increases.

However, it’s always been my goal …

That AmyNews.com wouldn’t just be a ts site,

But a personal website by someone who just happens to be transsexual.

(Again, for those new to the scene … that’d be me.)

There’s much, much more to me than my transsexualism !!

Oh sure, my t-ism is mentioned fairly frequently at times …

Because that’s what is going on in my life at times.

But it’s also not mentioned as frequently on other occasions,

Because I got other stuff going on.

(Seriously people, believe it or not, and I’m sure you don’t … I’ve actually received inquiries asking me to post my movie reviews again … apparently some people actually liked them !!! 🙂 Okay, apparently only one person actually liked them, but they really liked them !! :))

The last couple of months have been incredibly great in soooo many ways,

But also quite demanding in others.

So many times I’ve needed to punch out a post …

But didn’t have the energy,

Nor motivation …

To expend the effort to vague up who or what I was posting about.

Meaning that …

I really couldn’t publish some of the junk I’ve been keying.

Or at least,

Didn’t feel right publishing some of the junk I’ve been keying.

Which is actually quite ironic,

Considering more than a couple of my posts were about jerks who found talking about me to others in less than flattering ways appropriate behavior,

But yet I didn’t feel right or compelled to do the same to them.

Oh well.

So that’s where I’ve been …

And now that I sort of feel reengergized,

I’ll go back and vague up some of those posts …

So I can share them with you.

Please accept my apologies for my laziness the past couple of weeks.

I’m also now currently 826 e-mails behind …

But I’ll be caught up with all those by Sunday AM.

In the meantime,

Below …

Are some of the highlights of what I’ve done since my last post:

Judged two days of mock trials for future lawyers (trust me, in light of my whole transsexualism thing, not to mention just having this website in general, it’s probably the closest I’ll ever come to being a judge … but I had a blast, helped out a good cause, seemed to be appreciated, and was reminded once again … it’s phreaking hard to be a judge !! Definitely a much easier gig where I normally sit in the courtroom. Honest to gawd, I don’t know how real judges are able to pay attention … I kept having to force myself NOT to daydream !)

Goofed off with my Uncle Dave and Aunt Elaine for an afternoon having more fun and laughs than one is probably legally allowed to have in some states. And get this, my Uncle Dave was even kind enough not to force me to listen in the backgroud to Michigan State kicking the krap out of Michigan in basketball.

Received my first set of flowers ever from a man on Valentine’s Day !!! (There’s a few qualifiers there depending on where you put the comma, isn’t there? So let’s just clarify … it was the first time a man has ever sent me flowers !!!) Way too sweet and the flowers were gorgeous !!! A beautiful arrangement with some maize and blue surrounding 18 pink roses. Can I hear a collective … ahhhhhhhhhhhh ! 🙂

Gave one, two, three career day presentations … I was told I was the students favorite, but of course, I told the kids to say that. Credit to Shaft for the theme of the career day presentation I used for those sessions … I totally scammed an idea he used a few years ago … it was way worthy, much more interesting than anything I would have talked about and the kids loved it.

Spent much time on the road practicing pretty much in every court except my home court.

Worked my phreaking ass off.

Got some highlights added to my hair without any of the trauma or anguish that I normally experience when doing anything different with my hair. For the most part, my hair is pretty much my natural color, certainly lighter no doubt, but not too many shades from natural and mainly meant to just cover up the non-pigmented strands I have (that’d be the gray hairs for those of you who aren’t hip to contemporary salon lingo). But I’ve been told by some women that my blonde hair makes me more easily read as a transsexual. Apparently it looks very fake to them, which is odd … because I thought it would be my boobs they said were obviously fake. 🙂 Even odder, I get those same comments about the “fakeness” of my hair even when I’m not coloring it, but just highlighting it. Anyways, a friend of mine pointed out that it’s usually brunettes that make that comment about the “fake” look of my hair and that brunettes often have issues with blondes. I guess I skipped that chapter when reading my copy of So You’re a Girl Now, Here’s Krap You Need To Know. So much to learn !!! 🙂

Spent nights and nights and nights getting things arranged and pulled together at my humble abode. Not exciting I know … but my life isn’t all glamour and excitement !!! 🙂

Had some wicked fun lunches with friends and consumed many times my new favorite lunchtime meal … a seafood omelette called The Tidal Wave. It’s sooooo good !! Yummmmmmmy.

Worked my phreaking ass off some more.

Spent many hours roaming the mwall with a good friend who turns out to not only frequent the same places I shop, but is in total sync with my approach to shopping … lots of shopping with very little buying. I think she and I must be from the same planet !!

Spilled coffee all over myself as I was trying to carry my purse, computer and a new printer up to my office while balancing a cup of coffee on the top of the new printer box. Tragedy struck when the strap to my computer bag slid off my shoulder, jerking my left arm down, launching said virgin cup of coffee at my body, at which time the coffee lid decided it had better things to do than stay attached to the coffee cup … apparently the two of them had been having issues anyways … resulting in lotsa hot coffee spilling all over me. Which then caused me to laugh, because honestly, it was pretty funny, but also caused me to activate my elastic superpowers and spring said virgin coffee cup off my body, towards the lobby wall, pouring coffee all over the wall and soaking into the carpeting beneath.

I was sort of pissed off about it, so other than myself, I didn’t clean anything up.

My friend Miss Daisy was in town (he moved to Florida last October/November) and I got to spend some time with him tracking him down while he was doing the gay bar hopping thing. It’s the topic of its own post, so I won’t expand on it here, other than to say … way nice seeing him !! 🙂 And because I told Craig I’d mention him on my website, and because he said I could, Hi Craig !!!! 🙂

While mwalling, I noticed this woman whom I didn’t recognize staring at me. Yikes !! I couldn’t quite shake her. Or her repeated glances at me. Krap, she must of read me !! Anyways, showing some boldness, she stopped just looking at me and actually approached me.

“Hi, I’m sorry for staring, but you look like someone I might recognize, is your name Amy?”

“Ahhh, yes,” I answered, desperating trying, but failing, to recognize her.

“AmyNews.com … that’s your website, isn’t it?”

Turns out I didn’t recognize her because I didn’t know her, but she explained sorta, kinda how she had first found my website. And that she enjoys it. What are the odds !! 🙂 Anyways, technically, I guess she did read me … or more accurately … read my website !! 🙂

Feeling remorse, I got on my hands and knees and scrubbed the wall and carpeting where I spilled the coffee. Note for future reference … despite one’s degree of pissedofness for spilling a virgin cup of coffee, which I might add was really, really hot … I suspect it’s better to clean up the mess right away rather than waiting a day to attack it.

I pulled off a technical feat of utter and complete chica geekness solving an infrastructure problem that was frustrating me.

Added “At some point in my life, say on network television … ‘What would McGuyver do in a situation like this?‘ to my life to-do list.”

There,

I think you’re all caught up now.

Again …

I’m really sorry for the lack of postage and I WILL do better !! 🙂

Though if you can think of some appropriate public journal penance for me to perform …

I will consider such. 🙂