Hour No. 25 Billion
Somedays …
On occassioooon …
You just don’t feel very attractive.
Now I’m not referring to feeling hot, beautiful, georgeous, pretty, cute or anything like that.
What I am referring to is how each of us have our good days and bad days and average days …
Average days are the ones where we spend most of the time,
Good days are the ones where for some reason, our hair cooperates, our skin just rocks and everything we have fits perfectly !!
Bad days tend to be just the opposite, hair totally bites, no amount of make-up can solve the facial blemishes, and the previous days’ binging intake of chips, salsa and cerveza has left one with enough salt in their system, with associated water retention, to melt a frozen Great Lake.
And yesterday … totally bad look. It wasn’t a hair issue and it wasn’t a weight gain issue …
No … it was the facial blemishes issue.
See … I returned to the electrolysis mat at the end of the week. First time since my ffs. So that’s about a 7 week lapse.
Now the 24.999999 billion hours of electrolysis I have already suffered through has done a nice job of reducing most facial hair remnants.
Or at least it had … because about three weeks ago I started getting regrowth in my historical troublespots … beneath my lower lip on both sides of my chin … in such a way that I wonder if the ffs or steriods I took for a period afterwards triggered something.
So sucks.
Anyways, I had no choice but to do the “let it grow out” thang … which I started doing at the end of the previous week … and though 90% of the growth was light and barely visible, there were some dark boogers spread throughout … even, for some reason now, on my upper lip !!!!
PHUCK !!!!
Gawd does that ever piss me off !!!! Grrrrrrrrrr
Oh well … gotta deal with it.
The only thing that kept me slightly sane was the knowledge that I can go weeks without shaving the face and still have less facial hair than some gg’s … including some who have said some of the meaner, judgmental, arrogant things one could say to me. (Opps, I didn’t say that out loud, did I?)
So I did … 5 hours … clearing all sorts of krap … and cheese ‘n rice … did it ever, phreakin’ hurt !!!
Apparently such a long interval between sessions causes one’s desensitization to pain … to weaken. As for I think the first time ever … there was a teardripping from my eyes (but not even a slight whimper, my only “in pain” tell is in my eyes … sometimes it’s the blankness, othertimes some moisture, but at worse, a single drip tear) … I never once thought of stopping, but the pain this time … oh gawd, awful. Simply awful.
Now I can handle the pain … I did.
I have.
And I’ve got more pain to handle.
More electrolysis in some very … senstive … areas. 😉
More emotional pain with which to struggle.
So I’ll continue to handle the pain.
But I can’t handle the facial blemishes resulting from the electrolysis !!!
Those little, red marks of inflammation left by the electrolysis were all over my upper lip, and two lower corners of my mouth …
And totally lead to insecurity in how I look.
So I was icing the krap outta my face … sauving the daylights out of the galvanic bites with antibacterial ointment … and icing the krap out of my face again.
Finally, I had no choice, I had to resort to that bain of my whole transition … make-up.
Not the kind of make-up I love … lipgloss …
Nor the kind of make-up I’m certainly in the beginning stages of having a very arousing affair …. eye works …
But the kind of make-up I abhour … concealer, foundation, powder.
I hate it … absolutely hate it.
I suck at applying it … it never looks subtle … I feel so made up … I just do not have the capability of applying foundation or powder. I’m the worse of anyone in the world at it. I look at all of these women who can apply and wear it so naturally, so that you don’t even realize they are wearing any … and I constantly asked myself … how?
Anyways … I spackled my face with the krap because I figured I needed to at least do something.
And resolved myself to having a really Bad Day … at least face-wise.
(On the other hand, my alma mater totally kicked butt today and won the Big Ten Championship !!! Yay !!! Go Blue ! 🙂 If my plumbing work had been completed and I had a boyfriend … somebody would have so gotten laid last night ! Hmmm, and late afternoon for that matter.)
Same with cyan concealer, naturally.
Yeah, Ryan has two diferent concealers for me to use … the one I use most of the time my yellow-tinted concealer (known to me as NW25) for under my eyes … thanks for the tip on making sure I use fresh make-up ! 🙂 I do a pretty good job of making sure I don’t let mascara or foundation age too long.
One more tip. If you’re covering blemishes left from recent electrolysis, be sure to only use fresh make-up. In time make-up accumulates bacteria and you don’t want to apply bacteria laden foundation or concealers on fresh wounds.
I did an hour on Thursday, and an hour on saturday. I hate it with a passion too. I’m doing it every week for an hour or so, to remain completley clear. Sooner or later, it will be over.
But it SUCKS…At the beginning of my transition, I would do two hours at a time. Now I can’t take more then an hour. My face is too sensitive.
I did the laser first, so that cut my Electro time considerably (I have only logged 33 hours…
Anyway, did I say it SUCKS?…No? well, it sucks…
Cheers hon…you’ve got several people on the same wavelenght you are!
XXOO
Makenna
Being color-blind puts you at a disadvantage. The best way to conceal redish blemishes is with a cyan (bluish-green) concealer followed by a good foundation. You need subtractive color filtration to balance out blems with color. Has your make-up guy discussed timted concealers with you? Use yellow tinted concealers to cover blue/purple bruises and bluish blemishes such as under eye circles.
Yeah … I’ve done the make-up counter girl thing … actually, my make-up counter girl is a guy (Ryan) and he totally rocks … I use MAC cosmetics and Ryan has done a good job I think of matching what I need in terms of color and texture. He’s cool, and like my hair stylist, he knows both Joe and Amy, and he takes super good care of me (he goes above and beyond the call of duty when it comes to doing my charts in extreme detail to accommodate my color-blindness). It’s definitely an application issue for me, not product. I can do my lips with a beer in both hands and my eyes closed, but for the love of gawd, I just can’t do foundation/powder/whatever.
I’ll check out the Making Faces book Yodette and Claire. Thanks ! 🙂
i hear ya about the electro aims! i’ve had 4 3/4 hours in the past couple days, with another 1 1/2 tomorrow… ugh.
with foundation, i think the trick is finding the right one specifically for you, in terms of color, opacity, and hold. i use dermablend for now because of the need to cover blemishes, but it’s hard to make look anywhere near natural. have you consulted a makeup counter girl about this? also, paula begoun‘s books talk about how to choose the right foundation as well. dunno if that helps, but…
oh, i have “making faces” and can vouch for it: it’s awesome! 🙂
..claire
Have you read any of the books by Kevyn Aucoin, such as _Making Faces_?