All The Time

I’ve taken a few days off from posting,

Not so much because I found myself lacking anything to say …

But because Kenna’s recovery was much more important,

And I didn’t want to interrupt the wonderful updates that Kenna’s Shaft (kna Greg the Great) has been sharing with us.

Yet now I’m screwing up the flow to all of that …

Because,

Let’s face it …

I’ve always got something to say,

And I can be quiet for only so long.

However, please note that for the time being …

The Kenna’s Home post, along with all of Greg the Great’s timely updates, is highlighted and linked in the top, right column on the front page. 🙂

So anyways …

Back to me. 🙂

I figure I’ll ease you back into the oddness of my life by giving you a two week update on Amanda and Nicole.

Around Day 5 I was still experiencing discomfort and tightness in my breast region,

But I was not incapable of being moderately active.

Nothing was too out of control …

Except for the fact,

That my voice that was previously missing in action …

Decided to send me a note and tell me that it was simply going on vacatioooon …

Without me !

Bitch !! 🙂

I did go into work for periods of time over the following days,

Yet also did work for home.

I tired quicker than normal,

So naps were nice to take,

But not necessarily required.

I was down to one Vicodin a day,

But I did take a valium to sleep a couple of the nights,

As being somewhat more active really seemed to make me uncomfortable by the end of the day.

After a few days of no voice, finally on Wednesday,

At my dad’s urging,

I called Dr. Z to ask him if this was somehow related to the breathing tube down my throat while I was under the general.

He called me back promptly after my page,

And listened to me whisper out the symptons.

He already had me on some antibiotics,

Though they were not prescribed for a throat condition.

Nonetheless,

He didn’t think this was related to the breathing tube as I had my voice a few days after surgery before losing it …

And was thinking that it was more flu or virus related.

Anyways, since I was going to see him in less than two days when I went to Chicago to see Kenna …

We decided to give it those two days to see where it was then.

Well … true to form,

By the very next day …

I started getting my voice back !!

Wooo hoooo !! 🙂

Friday,

After scrambling like krazy in the AM to try and get out of the phreaking office …

I arrived at Dr. Z’s for my one week check-up …

Only a mere two hours late.

First … Dr. Z removed the stitches from under my nose,

And showed me the massaging techniques he wanted me to use on the remaining scar to minimize it.

I had a substantial about of brusiing under the nose and above the lip still,

But my lips were shaping up nicely.

Just as he had said, the swelling diminished substantially in just a week,

And he thinks I’ll only need one more set of fat injections in the lips to get them at the point where I want them to be …

And stay ! 🙂

He then moved to examine Amanda and Nicole …

Amanda was in great shape,

Though Nicole had one extensive bruise on upper mid level, inner cleavage location …

Along with an abrasion reaction from one of the bandage things left there.

He showed me the massage techniques to do …

And we called it a day.

Fast forward to today …

My breasts feel large, but in my opinion, look very proportionate to my body;

They are still somewhat sore, and discomfort remains, sometimes very prominent at times, especially after I’ve been active; but, the pain is nothing compared to what it was like to begin with and I’m pretty much doing the same old things that I’ve always done;

Amanda is bruise free and just has the bandages covering the incision point;

Nicole still has the bruise on the inner cleavage side, along with the bandage abrasion, but both are gradually diminishing;

Nicole seems slightly more swollen than Amanda;

Both itch like krazy at times, the result I think of the skin being stretched significantly;

They still remain a bit high on chest and have not yet settled down, something that isn’t expected until 2 – 6 weeks post surgery I guess;

And, both brests continue to feel somewhat firm, but definitely softer than immediately after surgery. That will continue to improve.

When I am standing or sitting, they seem to be nicely spaced apart, avoiding that telltale implant cleavage that you notice sometimes. In fact, I think they really look nice, however; when I’m laying on my back … I have noticed, which is something that Dr. Z advised me of, they seem to be somewhat more separated than you’d expect to see in a natal girl and stay more prominent (i.e. they stick up more instead of flattening out) than what you’d expect to see in any non-implant girl, natal or ts.

I am doing the massaging techniques twice daily, which primarily consist of groping oneself along each of the sides of Amanda and Nicole several times, plus the standard front grope approach. I also press down especially firmly along the top in at attempt to encourage the twins to settle down. It’s become somewhat monotonous, and on more than one occasion, I’ve thought that a male human massager would actually be useful in this respect. 🙂

Dr. Z informed me that I’m supposed to wear the obscenely unattractive with disturbing sew lines post-surgical support bra during the day for another two weeks (four weeks total) or that I can go braless at times, but that I shouldn’t start wearing other bras until four weeks post-op. However, the after care instructions say I’m only supposed to wear the obscenely unattractive with disturbing sew lines post-surgical support bra for a total of two weeks, which means I could stop wearing it today. I have yet decided what I will do … as I know he told me specifically to wear it for four weeks, but I do hate it with a passion, not so much because it’s uncomfortable … as far as bras go, it’s not really that bad, but I hate it mainly because it looks hideous under any top that I choose to wear.

On a few occasions Amanda and Nicole have actually felt like my breasts,

My very own flesh …

Which is a totally kewl feeling …

And I am glad that I have taken this step,

It’s certainly made life easier as far as just being me.

Yet on a few other ocasions they have felt extremely foreign,

And I’ve caught myself thinking …

I can’t wait to get home and get these phreaking falsies off,

Oh wait, they aren’t falsies !!

Two or three times I’ve also had the “What the hell did I do?” feeling.

Oh yeah …

And last Sunday,

The Fourth of July …

I got hit with a healthy dose of the post-surgery blues.

An incredibly healthy dose that was the culmination of the whole post surgery, hormone taking interruption, anesthesia after-effects, simple pain and discomfort, stressing like krazy getting things in line to just do the surgery, post surgery life responsibilities that obviously continue, a growing sense of isolation, and all sorts of other stuff that just bums a person out at times,

But that dear viewers,

Is a topic for another post. 🙂

Anywhose,

One of the most notable after-effects yet remaining …

Is that my nipples are somewhat attentive …

All the time !!!

I’m not talking about just when I get out of the shower,

Walk past an air conditioning vent,

Meander through the frozen food department,

Or the grocery’s dairy section.

I’m talking … all the time !!

Now after surgery, I did lose sensitivity in both nipples, but Dr. Z assured me that it would return,

And it has in both.

Yay to sensitive nipples !!!! 🙂

Amanda’s nipple has always been less sensitive than Nicole’s,

But both clearly have feeling,

And gaaawwwwwddd, is Nicole’s nipple ever sensitive.

Mucho nice !! 🙂

Of course,

I mention this only as part of a clinical evaluatioooooon,

Though …

To my future boyfriend/husband who is reading this stuff:

Please take notice that a little more attention to Nicole rather than Amanda can be very rewarding for me …

And you in the long run !! 🙂