Just some stuff

You know … I’m not crazy about the tone in some of my posts lately … they seem so down … and I’m really not feeling THAT down …

Besides … I’ve got a lot of personal things going on that are bound to sort of create a blah, uneasy mood …

My dad’s health is always a concern,

My mom has some of her own possibly very serious health issues,

My dog almost had to be put down last week, I’ve nursed her back to health and have spent hours at the vet, but they still don’t know what’s wrong with her,

And ….

My summer break has been completely lacking associatiooon with my friends – their lives are moving on and mine is sorta on hold – I don’t think I’ve seen Shaft outside of work except for one 2 hour period when we did some yardwork, and I’ve seen Singer maybe four times for a total of a couple of hours since April – sure, I’ve talked with them all, chatted with them, e-mailed them … but in years past, I pretty much did something with one or all of them several times a week … bar, golf, movies, bar, beach, bar … did I mention bar? 🙂 … but this year … not a once.

I think it’s sort of interesting how when I take a step back … this summer … sorta my summer of isolation … is actually part of my whole transition … sorta a one-time lull … as I wind things down in Joe Hairdy’s life.

I totally anticipate next summer … I’ll be quite active, as I was last summer … and all summers before … I just don’t know with who I’ll be active !! 🙂

Anyways … I’m just punching this out because I like to sort of keep track of my feelings through various stages, to see what I’m experiencing at different points … I suspect there’s a similarity here amongst many during their transition.

So my point is … I’m not phunking, I’m not blahing … I’m just observing and recording …

‘Cause I’m still totally laughing daily at my life and the people around me ! 🙂

Case in point – I came back to the office last night in pretty much andro mode … boy khaki shorts, girl golf shirt (as if the difference is even noticeable), girl Chaco’s, no make-up, but my hair was combed out and falling in my Amy-bob, I haven’t shaved my face in I don’t know how long, but yes, my legs were soft and smooth and looking mighty fine !! hehe … I’m leaving about 8:00ish or so and as I’m leaving the building to walk to the parking garage, I notice the look … this one 50ish woman can’t tell if I’m boy or girl … and she’s more than curious … so she’s trying to get a glimpse of me without being too obvious … and Duh, I’m not going to make it any easier for her … I throw some mixed signals with my inconsistencies between my walk and upper body movements, toss in a boy head tilt with a girly lip curl … now her view is sort of staggered because I’m walking past multiple windows outside of the pizza shop in which she is dining with two men and another woman … so she’s only getting glimpses of me … then at the last window … when she’s just blatantly staring … I turn my head to look into the pizza shop and sorta surprise her … granted, she maintained her composure and smiled at me … I smiled at her … and she set her drink down while still looking at me … totally missed the table and spilled it completely on the floor !! I still don’t think she got the answer to her question.

Another win for Amy. 🙂