Fundamentals

I feel it happening. It’s starting.

The fear of what I’m doing is gradually evolving into an intensity to just do it. The intensity is now more controlling than the fear …. the tide has turned.

I’m less and less focused on “the whys” and “the hows” …

And when posed with such questions … saying “I don’t know”, “I just am”, “I’ll figure it out” … is becoming perfectly acceptable to me. I know … I’ll figure it out.

It’s a typical approach to how my personality operates. It is what makes me great in a crisis … or in a closer role … but less valuable in a long term planning situation … if I have plenty of time to do something, to decide something … I’m not that good … I’ll drag a decision out forever … you know … you kids were here for the first Season …

But if I have an imminent deadline … if the pressure is on … then I’m it.

I’m not bragging. It’s just the case. I get in The Zone.

I think Shaft is the person that first identified when I was in The Zone …

To this day … I think he finds it amusing … interesting.

Ex would distance herself from me when I was there.

Singer hated it when I was in the Zone.

But everyone … when needing me to perform … to produce … likes it when I’m in the Zone … it definitely increases their odds. 🙂

And now … I feel myself approaching that phase … I’ll be there soon … I’ve got a lot to do … in a limited time … and I’ll start doing it ….

But this time … I’ll be performing … producing … for me.

I’m ready.

And I like my odds.