An Amazing Weekend

I don’t often have weekends such as I just had …

And I’m hesitant to share just what an amazing weekend it has been,

As I don’t want to jinx the continuation of such wonder.

Friday night, after talking with Hottie, I returned to the office for about an hour, and then headed over to my parents …

For A Talk of Substance.

I told them of the desparation I was feeling from the pain I felt I was causing my dad.

I told them of my impending ffs … with the accompanying plans.

I told them of my sorrow for hurting them and the family.

And then I told them that the only time I’m not thinking about my gender issues …

Is when I’m just being me … Amy.

And that now … I have to continue pursuing the Life of Amy. For me.

I told them I’d make it as easy on them as I could. I’d present in boy for the balance of the year around them and my brother’s family. And I’d disappear after that if it would make it easier.

Something which they quickly said was not what they wanted.

We talked of what to tell extended family. And when.

We talked of what to tell general inquiries.

Dad confirmed that at no point was he ever disappointed in me … and that he fully expects me to pursue this as I do everything … for total success and with 100% effort.

He said he doesn’t feel pain over my decision, he just is concerned that others may say things to hurt me … and he worries for me. Emotionally and my safety. He wants to know what he can do to help me handle that … he doesn’t want me hurt. 🙂

Mom wants me to stay at their house after I get back from my ffs … for help and recovery support. 🙂

We talked a good 3 hours.

And when I left, it was positive, happy, and we had been open and honest with one another.

I felt my parents were there for me … loved me … and that I could still make them proud ! 🙂

Saturday was an incredibly cool day as once again I saw my parents … and things were sweetl. And my Golf with Morrie was equally positive and encouraging.

Sunday my dad got in a rumble with Comcast … for totally legitimate reasons I might add … and told them to take a phlying phuck … not necessarily in those terms … but the feeling was conveyed. I was so proud of him !! 🙂 So I went over and did a temp dial-up fix for him until the dsl replacement gets activated. Mom said I was such a “good girl“. LOL. Felt strange hearing that for the first time, but I think that’s a sign of acceptance, huh? 🙂

I then called Ex and asked if she wanted to go to the mwall shopping with me … I warned her that though I was in andro mode … I was going to be shopping for Amy things. She was hesitant, but finally decided to meet me. I think she was a little nervous about the excursion … but seeing my lack of nervousness … and observing firsthand my amazing shopping skills … she eventually started getting into it … we talked openly about things … I found outfits for her … and knowing what I was looking for, she pointed things out for me … we laughed and totally got into the shopping. And I think to her amazement, she had a really good time … and she said afterwards … “You’re going to be my shopping buddy.” Later she even called me to again reiterate that she had a good time and asked if I’d be interested in joining a yoga class with her …

Yes, totally an amazing weekend … not only did I feel little dysphoria … but I was happy ! 🙂 So phreakin’ kewl !!!!! 🙂

Oh yeah, I also got confirmation that yes … I am down a full size as once again one of my purchases this afternoon … in my traditional size 12 … was too large. Meaning I’m down to a size 10 and that’s prior to my waist sculpting … yay !!! 🙂 Plus … I finally found a bra that works for me … and not only that, but I like it !!

wwk ! 🙂