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• I’m really encouraged by this new season of Survivor …… it’s pretty entertaining ….. though seems to highlight the worst of each of my gender roles !! The guy tribe is nothing but a bunch of egotistical, testosterone filled dolts …. could they BE more stupid? (Said with appropriate Chandler Bing indignation.) The gal tribe is so helpless and whiny it’s embarassing !! And Joanna is a real bitch !! (Yeah ….. okay ….. in fact, Joanna is this week’s annoited hypocrit ….. All religiousy and moralistically superiour because she dislikes the Immunity “Idol” in their camp (honor no other idols or something like that), but in the next breath, gets all yelly and screamy when she hears something she doesn’t like while she’s eavesdropping on other’s conversation.

• Happy Birthday to You. Happy Birthday to You. Happy Birthday to Singer. Happy Birthday to You.

• 5 hours of electrolysis yesterday ….. I”m wasted. It’s not the longest I’ve ever went non-stop, not by far ….. but it was my first visit in a few weeks and gawd …… it hurt and just exhausted me ….. and I’m frustrated …… I went 4 days without shaving to get enough growth ….. and it was PLENTY of growth ….. which makes me mad ….. I want it gone …… I’m going to try to figure out if I can swing going to E2000 in Dallas for a couple of days early next month to make an end run …… I need to have this gone ….. SOON !!!! And after …… what was my last count ….. 300 hours or so …… I should be close ….. come on ….. I barely had to shave when I was a guy !!!

• Okay …… what’s my career objective ?? …… I want to be a judge. I really have never made it any great secret …… I’ve been pretty open about it …. and I have some judges that have counseled and advised me along those lines and in my efforts in that direction …. BUT …… nobody knows that I’m really a girl !! Now there are two ways to become a judge …… get elected or get appointed (depends on the type of judgeship and whether it is state or federal) ….. now as a GUY …. my name has been tossed around a few times, not in major serious ways, but more of an “up and comer, someone to think about, at least in the future” way ….. it’s a nice ego boost …. and it’s something I’d love to do ……. but ….. once I stop pretending to be a boy, the chances of being appointed decrease SIGNIFICANTLY (hey, I know, they disappear completely, but gotta keep open the possibility !! :)) ….. I’ll only get there if I win it in election ….. and let’s be more real …… unless it’s a sitting judge running for re-election, women don’t win elections to become judges, men do. Women get there by appointment. Sad …. but very true. Go ahead and check it out. I have. Imagine the odds of a transsexual woman winning election ….. pretty remote !!!! So ….. why am I saying any of this stuff ???? Because ….. it was suggested to me to toss my name in the ring for an open judgeship ….. and when I hear that ……. it makes me realize just how much I am giving up in ceasing my gender role deception …… because …… I honestly think if I continued playing the boy role …… I could be a judge within the next 5 years …… and now …. oh well.

• Oh …… now I know that a lot of you viewers don’t know me very well (yet :)), but if you did, you’d know that it is in my nature that everything I do, I do for a reason ….. I think things out and work timelines …. it is part of my Jedi training ….. so, as I’m sure Shaft would attest with reference to that previous bullet point ….. I’ve got a plan !! 🙂

• Oh … Oh …. with reference to my previous bullet point (I amuse myself in the most infantile ways !!), I never work timelines when it comes to my personal relationships, it wouldn’t be right ….. which is why in my personal life ….. I’m clueless and pathetic !!