reading up<\/a> on what interests you !! :))
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\nAnd even if all that goes well … is managed correctly … it’s still a bumpy, shaky ride with flames of heat and fire blasting all around you … a heckuva lot bumpier than it was just moments before you started your descent … and scarier than when you finally break through and are on your final descent to the runway.<\/p>\nRecently … I’ve started my descent … that final stage to fulltimeness …<\/p>\n
And last week I definitely felt the turbulance …<\/p>\n
Seems like everything I did somehow pissed somebody off … as many utterances of mine were deemed irritating, insensitive, rude, mean, evil or wrong.<\/p>\n
We’re not just talking one or two people here and there …<\/p>\n
I pissed more people off last week than I have in probably the last 10 years.<\/p>\n
Aggregate.<\/p>\n
By last night I was forced to accept the reality that the only people that still liked me were The UnUsual Suspects and My Hobbits (Ex and Morrie).<\/p>\n
Suckers ! \ud83d\ude42<\/p>\n
Which of course confused me … I mean … what’s not to like about me ?!?! \ud83d\ude42<\/p>\n
What changed to make me go from doing little wrong in most people’s minds to doing so little right?<\/p>\n
Well … apparently me in more ways that I thought !! \ud83d\ude42<\/p>\n
I’ve had a very smooth transition to date. Slow, deliberate, planned. My disclosures have generally rocked, my follow-up interactions have been comfortable, and as far as I know, confidentiality in the informatioooon has been generally maintained.<\/p>\n
But there are bound to be some bumps along the way, regardless.<\/p>\n
As Joe Hairdy I never shared my feelings, I tried to do whatever anyone wanted of me, I really never did anything but work, and my wit\/humor\/sarcasm seemed to be given a free pass regardless of what I said.<\/p>\n
Even to this day … it’s not like I blab my feelings to just everyone, for the most part the greatest expression of my emotional state is the silly Mood indicator on my front page.<\/p>\n
And I still try to do whatever people ask of me,<\/p>\n
Granted, I don’t work nearly as much as I used to slave away …<\/p>\n
But I actually think I’m funnier now than I ever was before …<\/p>\n
I’ve really been developing some good material !!! \ud83d\ude42<\/p>\n
So to me it seems that I haven’t changed that much to warrant such a change in interactions with so many people that I know …<\/p>\n
However, clearly I have.<\/p>\n
Except for The Suspects and My Hobbits … I’ve found myself becoming hesitant to say anything to anyone … which is a major change in and of itself !! \ud83d\ude09<\/p>\n
Though something else has had to change about me … but WHAT ??<\/p>\n
At first I thought my new character trait of “I can do no right<\/i>” was the result of others being in the shuttle experiencing reentry with me … and that was making all of us … edgy.<\/p>\n
Sure … that’s it … we’re all a bit edgy.<\/p>\n
But I don’t honestly think that’s the case.<\/p>\n
Because, let’s be real here folks …<\/p>\n
I’m in the shuttle alone … this is my solitary ride … in my transition, I’m the only one that’s really having to deal with, experience, the direct repercussions of transitioning … if there’s edgy, it must be me.<\/p>\n
Oh sure … there are plenty of concerned, involved, maybe just interested people looking up from the ground …<\/p>\n
Hoping I land safely … or maybe just curious whether or not all will end well … (oh yeah, and probably a few NASCAR fans watching just hoping to see a crash. :))<\/p>\n
Maybe I deserve to be edgy … since if I crash this bird … the only one gone will be me. But I don’t find that acceptable for myself.<\/p>\n
Now I’m lucky … I’ve got people I trust to the end of the world at Master Control … on the ground … guiding me.<\/p>\n
In the early days, Shaft expertly provided directions, diagnosed problems as the head of Master Control … then once Baby Shaft was born …<\/p>\n
Singer took the helm fulltime with precision, control and concern …. guiding me out of some really, really dangerous situations in ways only she could do … really dangerous situations.<\/p>\n
Hottie has even found himself plopped into the ground command chair on multiple occasions and proven that he’s not only phreakin’ hot … but really smart … and caring … hot was covered, wasn’t it?<\/p>\n
Heck, even Sister has had to cover a few sick days … which she’s done admirably … though it’s a bit scary when you’re talking with her afterwards and she says … “Oh, really, I don’t remember saying that.<\/i>” \ud83d\ude42<\/p>\n
Now Miss Daisy hasn’t really ever been in the command chair … mainly because his first words of advice would be … “Get some vodka<\/i>” \ud83d\ude42 … But he’s this experienced astronaut … who has already landed his craft … offering me specific advice known only by those who have survived reentry themselves … the com connection to him has been invaluable.<\/p>\n
My Hobbits … well … they’ve been the family … keeping my grounded. Disregarding my status in space and treating me, intereacting with me … as they always have.<\/p>\n
But even with all this help …<\/p>\n
I’m still trying to fly a brick with wings …<\/p>\n
And am solely responsible for the success or failure of this mission.<\/p>\n
But apparently the stress of such responsibility has affected me more than I realized … noticed.<\/p>\n
Which kind of makes me feel more stressed …<\/p>\n
Because in addition to feeling the nauseating pressure of handling reentry itself …<\/p>\n
I’ve got to figure out what’s made me become so less likable.<\/p>\n
There are a few theories I’m contemplating,<\/p>\n
But discussion of those will have to wait for another time.<\/p>\n
I’ve got to get back to flying this craft …<\/p>\n
Has anyone seen where I left the flight manual ?? \ud83d\ude42<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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