I don’t often have weekends such as I just had …<\/p>\n
And I’m hesitant to share just what an amazing weekend it has been,<\/p>\n
As I don’t want to jinx the continuation of such wonder.<\/p>\n
Friday night, after talking with Hottie, I returned to the office for about an hour, and then headed over to my parents …<\/p>\n
For A Talk of Substance<\/i>.
\n
\nI told them of the desparation I was feeling from the pain I felt I was causing my dad.<\/p>\n
I told them of my impending ffs … with the accompanying plans.<\/p>\n
I told them of my sorrow for hurting them and the family.<\/p>\n
And then I told them that the only time I’m not thinking about my gender issues …<\/p>\n
Is when I’m just being me … Amy.<\/p>\n
And that now … I have to continue pursuing the Life of Amy. For me.<\/p>\n
I told them I’d make it as easy on them as I could. I’d present in boy for the balance of the year around them and my brother’s family. And I’d disappear after that if it would make it easier.<\/p>\n
Something which they quickly said was not what they wanted.<\/p>\n
We talked of what to tell extended family. And when.<\/p>\n
We talked of what to tell general inquiries.<\/p>\n
Dad confirmed that at no point was he ever disappointed in me … and that he fully expects me to pursue this as I do everything … for total success and with 100% effort.<\/p>\n
He said he doesn’t feel pain over my decision, he just is concerned that others may say things to hurt me … and he worries for me. Emotionally and my safety. He wants to know what he can do to help me handle that … he doesn’t want me hurt. \ud83d\ude42<\/p>\n
Mom wants me to stay at their house after I get back from my ffs … for help and recovery support. \ud83d\ude42<\/p>\n
We talked a good 3 hours.<\/p>\n
And when I left, it was positive, happy, and we had been open and honest with one another.<\/p>\n
I felt my parents were there for me … loved me … and that I could still make them proud ! \ud83d\ude42<\/p>\n