I’m at an interesting point …<\/p>\n
It’s really hard to describe.<\/p>\n
I’d probably call it a point of resigned acceptance and determination.<\/p>\n
I had a difficult weekend this past weekend. Actually, the past couple of weeks, maybe even the past month, has been trying.<\/p>\n
I think it’s been because despite some family and friends legitimate desire to be there for me, they can’t help but convey their desires that I don’t transition,<\/p>\n
Or when accepting that they can’t change my mind, simply make it convenient to distance themselves from me.<\/p>\n
And that’s been hard for me to grasp.<\/p>\n
Just as hard as it’s been for them to grasp what I’m experiencing with my transsexualism.<\/p>\n
And as I’m gradually accepting I can’t change their minds,<\/p>\n
I’m simply finding it convenient to distance myself from them.<\/p>\n
I’ve never felt or experienced more awkward conversations or exchanges with some of my family and friends than I have in the past month.<\/p>\n
It’s almost like we’re strangers … not really sure what to even talk about because we dont’ know each other … combined with not really being sure what to talk about because we don’t want to offend one another … and it makes for some staggered discussions.<\/p>\n
On Sunday … I was at a point I had never been at before. I wasn’t suicidal, but I was certainly desperate. And traumatized.<\/p>\n
And as I worked my way through that experience … alone … I came to realize and appreciate just what a lonely, solitary journey this is.<\/p>\n
I think that’s an important point to reach … in order to survive the upcoming.<\/p>\n
And the determination that has accompanied the realization has been refreshingly energizing. \ud83d\ude42<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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