It’s interesting … the emotions and cycles that you go through in this journey of realization and self-acceptance …<\/p>\n
I remember to this day where I was when I accepted that I was a transsexual … October 2000 (sorry, I can’t remember the day, just the where<\/i> \ud83d\ude42 ).<\/p>\n
And over the succeeding years … I’ve been struggling to figure out what I was going to do about it.<\/p>\n
But I’ll never forget that feeling of acceptance. It was a good feeling, a liberating feeling, it was an answer, it was me accepting me<\/i>. \ud83d\ude42<\/p>\n
Well today, something happened …
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\nAt the time I didn’t grant it epiphany status … though as this day has progressed, the possibility of such seems to be increasing …<\/p>\n
I don’t know if it had anything to do with my puppy passing, I honestly don’t think so, but the timing calls into question any claims of coincidence.<\/p>\n
Actually, what it was …<\/p>\n
I think …<\/p>\n
Was the culmination of an independent thought of my own, corroborated with timely observations on the same day by Shaft and Lisa (record-holder for the longest comment I’ve ever received<\/i>), and my absorbtion of a great analysis of being, nature and me by Yodette (record-holder for the longest e-mail I’ve ever received<\/i>.)<\/p>\n
And you know what I accepted today?<\/p>\n
Something so basic and so simple, you’d have thought it would have registered by now …<\/p>\n
But it didn’t.<\/p>\n
I’m a girl.<\/p>\n
That’s it. Nothing more than that.<\/p>\n
I’m a girl.<\/p>\n
I don’t know why it’s taken so long for me to accept … I suspect it might be part of a residual chauvanism that caused an embarassment about “being a girl” … though that might be enhanced by the “why would you ever want to live a life as a woman” attitude I’ve received from some … and hey, let’s not forget a dash of the “what in the world are you thinking?” look of disgust offered yet by others … or heck, maybe it’s just part of the whole second puberty thing … and this development and pride in oneself is no different than every teenage girl experiences at some point …<\/p>\n
Who knows.<\/p>\n
All I know is that today …<\/p>\n
I accepted it.<\/p>\n
And have found myself fortified with added determination …<\/p>\n
As a result.<\/p>\n
So cool !! \ud83d\ude42<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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