I’m finding myself thirsting for solitude.<\/p>\n
I really don’t know for sure why the thirst.<\/p>\n
Though I’m guessing it’s sort of my mind telling me it needs some dedicated processor time.<\/p>\n
And it certainly has been actively working.<\/p>\n
I’ve been processing in my mind all of the things going on in my life …<\/p>\n
Having gone on in my life …<\/p>\n
And about to transpire in my life.<\/p>\n
But you know what ??
\n
\nSeriously …<\/p>\n
I’m not kidding …<\/p>\n
Taking to heart a wise comment made earlier …<\/p>\n
I really haven’t been doing too much thinking.<\/p>\n
It’s hard to explain, but though I can tell my mind is busy … working hard … it’s almost at a subconscious level … because I’m really not thinking of anything in particular.<\/p>\n
Now as we all know … it is totally within my ability to overthink things …<\/p>\n
And this weekend …<\/p>\n
I tried to think about this whole transition thing …<\/p>\n
I tried to think about figuring out a way to explain to my parents what this<\/i> feels like such that they can try to better understand why I find such a dramatic step necessary … and …<\/p>\n
I tried to think about reconciling in my mind the “transition anxiety” I feel caused by insecurities I have about deciding to transition to make myself happier as opposed to feeling a need to transition as the only way to avoid suicide.<\/p>\n
But when I tried to think about such things …<\/p>\n
My mind said …<\/p>\n
I don’t think so<\/i>.<\/p>\n
I’m busy<\/i>.<\/p>\n
So … in order to quench this thirst for solitude,<\/p>\n
I’m giving it its private time …<\/p>\n
I haven’t check my office e-mail all weekend …<\/p>\n
I silenced my cell phone and have only been checking sporadically for pages …<\/p>\n
I haven’t answered my land-based phone at all (total waste of money, it’s not like I ever answer that phone anyways).<\/p>\n
I roamed the mall … I vegged in front of the tube … and I pulled weeds growing in the cracks of my driveway.<\/p>\n
Hopefully my mind will finish processing soon …<\/p>\n
I’ve got a lot of serious stuff to overthink !!<\/p>\n
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