{"id":226,"date":"2003-04-18T08:38:07","date_gmt":"2003-04-18T13:38:07","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/amynews.com\/?p=218"},"modified":"2015-10-08T17:45:48","modified_gmt":"2015-10-08T21:45:48","slug":"selfish","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/amynews.com\/2003\/04\/selfish\/","title":{"rendered":"Selfish"},"content":{"rendered":"

You know ….. I’m seriously struggling with whether to post this or not …. ’cause with a couple of my previous posts this week …… it seems like Death is a frequent topic or thought of mine ….. and it really isn’t ….. so …. before I get to this point of some recent grey matter electrical activity …. let me give you the setting …..<\/p>\n

Driving to work about 20 minutes ago … radio isn’t on ….. very odd …. and my PMS and Chocolate CD mix isn’t playing either ….. even odder ….. just me and my thoughts ….. simply darn right scary ….. ‘ways ….. I was trying to think of what to say in response to Claire’s comment to my post yesterday …. when the sparks in my head connected in such a way that the following popped forth …. (who says “popped forth” … yikes !!)
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\nAs soon as you tell anyone …..<\/p>\n

Their trust<\/b> in the memory of you dies ….. it’s gone.<\/p>\n

If you commit suicide, you’re gone, but their trust <\/b>in the memory of you remains.<\/p>\n

Sure, they may think you were selfish for taking your life and leaving them all behind …..<\/p>\n

But in a non-selfish way ….. you let them keep their trust <\/b>in the memories of you. And since you’re gone, that’s something they get to keep forever.<\/p>\n

So if you tell them and elect to do nothing, you’re being selfish because you took away their trust <\/b>in the memories of you ….. and,<\/p>\n

If you tell them and transition, you’re being selfish because you took away their trust <\/b>in the memories of you ….. but,<\/p>\n

If you don’t tell them, just self-terminate ….. you’re not being selfish as you’re letting them keep their trust <\/b>in your memories …..<\/p>\n

I never thought I was ….. but looking at it that way ….. geezuz ….. I’m a really selfish person !! Oh well. \ud83d\ude42<\/p>\n

Now my next dilemma …. do I respond to Claire’s comment in the comment section or in an entirely new post ?? I’m suchawordhog. \ud83d\ude42<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

You know ….. I’m seriously struggling with whether to post this or not …. ’cause with a couple of my previous posts this week …… it seems like Death is a frequent topic or thought of mine ….. and it really isn’t ….. so …. before I get to this point of some recent grey…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_kad_blocks_custom_css":"","_kad_blocks_head_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_body_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_footer_custom_js":"","_kadence_starter_templates_imported_post":false,"_kad_post_transparent":"","_kad_post_title":"","_kad_post_layout":"","_kad_post_sidebar_id":"","_kad_post_content_style":"","_kad_post_vertical_padding":"","_kad_post_feature":"","_kad_post_feature_position":"","_kad_post_header":false,"_kad_post_footer":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[139],"tags":[],"taxonomy_info":{"category":[{"value":139,"label":"General"}]},"featured_image_src_large":false,"author_info":{"display_name":"Amy","author_link":"https:\/\/amynews.com\/author\/amy\/"},"comment_info":7,"category_info":[{"term_id":139,"name":"General","slug":"general","term_group":0,"term_taxonomy_id":143,"taxonomy":"category","description":"","parent":0,"count":775,"filter":"raw","cat_ID":139,"category_count":775,"category_description":"","cat_name":"General","category_nicename":"general","category_parent":0}],"tag_info":false,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/amynews.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/226"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/amynews.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/amynews.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/amynews.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/amynews.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=226"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/amynews.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/226\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/amynews.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=226"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/amynews.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=226"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/amynews.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=226"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}