{"id":224,"date":"2003-04-17T10:36:23","date_gmt":"2003-04-17T15:36:23","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/amynews.com\/?p=216"},"modified":"2015-10-08T17:45:49","modified_gmt":"2015-10-08T21:45:49","slug":"does-this-taste-bitter","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/amynews.com\/2003\/04\/does-this-taste-bitter\/","title":{"rendered":"Does this taste bitter?"},"content":{"rendered":"

“Why would you tell anyone you are even considering having a sex change if you are not definitely going to do it?<\/p>\n

I mean, because, once you tell anyone, things are never the same, so even if you don’t start living as a girl, don’t have a sex change, any relationship you have with people who know you were even thinking about it is going to be different.”<\/i><\/p>\n

Good question ….. I’ve considered it myself …… and after extensive self-reflection …… I’ve concluded the answer is because sometimes ….. I’m a bitch.<\/p>\n

If you want to know how I reach that conclusion, then ……
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\nLet me tell you a secret …..<\/p>\n

A secret that is just so obvious to those who suffer from transsexualism ….<\/p>\n

That we don’t even consider it a secret ….<\/p>\n

Here it is …..<\/p>\n

We would all transition in a heartbeat if we didn’t care about someone else’s feelings.<\/i><\/p>\n

Oh, sure, I know such a general statement can always have its exceptions, but generally speaking (it is<\/i> a general statement), most people don’t transition out of concern for the feelings or impact it would have on a family member or dear friend.<\/p>\n

And this is how I claim to exhibit a moderate level of bitchiness ….<\/p>\n

I’ve lived with this condition my entire life ….. I’ve dealt with it since I’ve been 4 – 5 years old ….. all out of respect and concern for others ….. like you ….. and they never were aware that I was doing something for them …. something that was uncomfortable and difficult for me …..<\/p>\n

And if I decided to continue doing this “thing” for them …… something so uncomfortable and difficult for me …..<\/p>\n

Well, I would want them to know I’m making such a sacrifice.<\/p>\n

I’m just tired of being a silent martyr.<\/p>\n

So ….. that being said ….. by telling you my secret when there is still some chance I will not transition or abort a transition at some point …..<\/p>\n

If I do follow through on the transition, there is no additional harm done, and …<\/p>\n

If I don’t following through on the transition, then you ‘ll know that my selfless nonaction was in some way on your behalf …..<\/p>\n

And that’s something of which I would want you to be well aware …..<\/p>\n

Because no matter how well I would pretend that I was happy and comfortable with nonaction …..<\/p>\n

I would want it to always be a nagging question in the back of your mind …..<\/p>\n

Am I really happy and comfortable?<\/p>\n

And on occasion ……<\/p>\n

You would look in my eyes …..<\/p>\n

And see that my pain remained …..<\/p>\n

All because of you.<\/p>\n

And because your happiness and comfort was more important than mine.<\/p>\n

That’s pretty bitchy, isn’t it ?? lol Gawd, I’ve got such potential !! \ud83d\ude42 I mean, with a sparky ‘tude like that ….. it’d be such a waste not to transition !! \ud83d\ude1b<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

“Why would you tell anyone you are even considering having a sex change if you are not definitely going to do it? I mean, because, once you tell anyone, things are never the same, so even if you don’t start living as a girl, don’t have a sex change, any relationship you have with people…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_kad_blocks_custom_css":"","_kad_blocks_head_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_body_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_footer_custom_js":"","_kadence_starter_templates_imported_post":false,"_kad_post_transparent":"","_kad_post_title":"","_kad_post_layout":"","_kad_post_sidebar_id":"","_kad_post_content_style":"","_kad_post_vertical_padding":"","_kad_post_feature":"","_kad_post_feature_position":"","_kad_post_header":false,"_kad_post_footer":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[132],"tags":[],"taxonomy_info":{"category":[{"value":132,"label":"Family and Friends Info"}]},"featured_image_src_large":false,"author_info":{"display_name":"Amy","author_link":"https:\/\/amynews.com\/author\/amy\/"},"comment_info":7,"category_info":[{"term_id":132,"name":"Family and Friends Info","slug":"family-and-friends-info","term_group":0,"term_taxonomy_id":136,"taxonomy":"category","description":"","parent":0,"count":26,"filter":"raw","cat_ID":132,"category_count":26,"category_description":"","cat_name":"Family and Friends Info","category_nicename":"family-and-friends-info","category_parent":0}],"tag_info":false,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/amynews.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/224"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/amynews.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/amynews.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/amynews.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/amynews.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=224"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/amynews.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/224\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/amynews.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=224"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/amynews.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=224"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/amynews.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=224"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}