{"id":1528,"date":"2006-08-02T09:37:58","date_gmt":"2006-08-02T13:37:58","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/amynews.com\/?p=1577"},"modified":"2015-10-08T17:35:28","modified_gmt":"2015-10-08T21:35:28","slug":"my-place","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/amynews.com\/2006\/08\/my-place\/","title":{"rendered":"My Place"},"content":{"rendered":"

If you would have told me five<\/del> three years ago,<\/p>\n

That there would be moments,<\/p>\n

Times,<\/p>\n

Where I would be socializing,<\/p>\n

Interacting with people,<\/p>\n

The world,<\/p>\n

Living life,<\/p>\n

And absolutely, kompletely forgetting My Function<\/em>,<\/p>\n

I imagine I would have said something like “I wish !<\/em> “<\/p>\n

Yet here,<\/p>\n

Today …<\/p>\n

At times,<\/p>\n

I can honestly say that particular wish has come true.<\/p>\n

It’s really an incredibly great, kickbutt feeling.<\/p>\n

Though the reason I know it’s an incredibly great, kickbutt feeling …<\/p>\n

Is because at some point,<\/p>\n

I’m always subsequently reminded of My Function<\/em> .<\/p>\n

Which usually makes me appreciate what an incredibly great, kickbutt feeling I had been experiencing,<\/p>\n

Now don’t get me wrong,<\/p>\n

It’s not like being reminded of My Function<\/em> is necessarily a bad experience,<\/p>\n

It’s not …<\/p>\n

My Function<\/em> and I are on really great terms with one another,<\/p>\n

And neither of us are the least bit bothered or embarrassed by the other.<\/p>\n

(Ahem, well, apparently it’s more accurate to simply state that I’m not the least bit bothered or embarrassed by My Function.<\/em> My Function<\/em> wants to speak for itself later. \ud83d\ude42 )<\/p>\n

Also note,<\/p>\n

That being reminded on My Function<\/em> is totally different than experiencing gender dysphoria.<\/p>\n

That latter, of course, being what one aims to dissipate by dealing with their Function<\/em> in the first place.<\/p>\n

And for me,<\/p>\n

That was a complete success.<\/p>\n

Gender Dysphoria BeGone – Apply directly to head. Gender Dysphoria BeGone – Apply directly to head. Gender Dysphoria BeGone – Apply directly to head.<\/em><\/p>\n

Seriously, for those Viewers that have never had to deal with gender dysphoria, be glad … it sucks. And for those of you that have to deal with gender dysphoria, *hug* … I know how it sucks.<\/p>\n

But back to the winding road leading to the point of this point …<\/p>\n

In this particular instance,<\/p>\n

I’m simply talking about being reminded of My Function,<\/em><\/p>\n

And<\/u> …<\/p>\n

In a very specific, extremely rare type of instance:<\/p>\n

First, being reminded of My Function<\/em> from a friend or friends;<\/p>\n

Second, the friend or friends are aware of My Function<\/em>; and,<\/p>\n

Third, the friend or friends have absolutely no problem with My Function<\/em>, meaning that in such situations I’m usually reminded of My Function<\/em> indirectly and unintentionally from my friend or friends.<\/p>\n

Confused yet?<\/p>\n

Yeah, I don’t blame ya, me too.<\/p>\n

I’m still trying to sort out the experience myself,<\/p>\n

Hence this post.<\/p>\n

Amyways,<\/p>\n

I’ll try to klarify:<\/p>\n

Sometimes this whole sex change thing really feels incredibly Twilight Zone-ish,<\/p>\n

Especially since I’ve transitioned and stayed around my hometown,<\/p>\n

It’s as if I’ve went to a parallel universe where everything is the same,<\/p>\n

Except I’m a girl.<\/p>\n

Which is great,<\/p>\n

Right?<\/p>\n

Exactly what I wanted,<\/p>\n

Right?<\/p>\n

Well,<\/p>\n

It is,<\/p>\n

Phreaking really great ! \ud83d\ude42<\/p>\n

But at times …<\/p>\n

Where the aforementioned elements are present,<\/p>\n

I find myself experiencing what I call a My Place<\/em> moment.<\/p>\n

A sort of deja vu feeling,<\/p>\n

Where I get caught off guard finding myself treated differently,<\/p>\n

By people I wouldn’t expect to be treating me differently …<\/p>\n

Solely because I’m a girl.<\/p>\n

I’m put in “My Place”<\/em>.<\/p>\n

Now I’m not talking about inclusion or exclusion of group outings, events or anything like that,<\/p>\n

I’m talking about interactions between people that in many ways is based on perceived societal placement,<\/p>\n

Status.<\/p>\n

Now as a woman,<\/p>\n

I’m used to it in many ways,<\/p>\n

And have no gripes about it …<\/p>\n

It is what it is,<\/p>\n

Just comes with the territory.<\/p>\n

But in My Place<\/em> moments,<\/p>\n

It’s an utter mindphuck, hiccup.<\/p>\n

Because for me,<\/p>\n

From my perspective,<\/p>\n

In those situations where I’m really comfortable around folks of past,<\/p>\n

Nothing has really changed visually when I’m hanging out with them.<\/p>\n

They appear the way they have always appeared.<\/p>\n

And since I’m really not looking at myself,<\/p>\n

I’m not visually aware of of my changes,<\/p>\n

Making it easy for me to forget anything has changed,<\/p>\n

Just be comfortable,<\/p>\n

And lulling myself to a point where I expect to receive the same type of social respect, treatment …<\/p>\n

I received before.<\/p>\n

That is …<\/p>\n

Until I’m put in My Place<\/em> . \ud83d\ude42<\/p>\n

It’s usually nothing major by any means,<\/p>\n

Sometimes it’s simply a guy talking to me like I don’t know what I’m talking about, doing the “Are you sure about that?<\/em> ” thing that guys do to women all the time, implying we’re stupid. Something they don’t do to men;<\/p>\n

Sometimes it’s overhearing a mean spirited, catty comment about me shot from another woman; and,<\/p>\n

Sometimes it’s just being relegated to subservient tasks and omitted from tasks I would just have expected to be ask for assistance.<\/p>\n

I’ll be the first to admit,<\/p>\n

It always catches me off guard,<\/p>\n

Sometimes feels like a cold slap in the face, and …<\/p>\n

Occasionally hurts my feelings.<\/p>\n

But personally,<\/p>\n

I think it’s a great thing to experience.<\/p>\n

It’s reflective of complete acceptance,<\/p>\n

At least on a subconscious level,<\/p>\n

By the friend and friends.<\/p>\n

It’s just that because I hung out in the parallel universe before …<\/p>\n

I’m able to notice the difference in this one.<\/p>\n

I’m definitely adding it to my list of things that I think are pretty kewl about having a Function.<\/em><\/p>\n

Though just for the record,<\/p>\n

It’s still not as great a thing as being able to drink all night on five bucks ! \ud83d\ude42<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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