{"id":1508,"date":"2006-04-24T12:05:20","date_gmt":"2006-04-24T17:05:20","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/amynews.com\/?p=1553"},"modified":"2015-10-08T17:35:38","modified_gmt":"2015-10-08T21:35:38","slug":"risky-business","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/amynews.com\/2006\/04\/risky-business\/","title":{"rendered":"Risky Business?"},"content":{"rendered":"

Recently I was invited to a social function,<\/p>\n

An invitation of which I accepted readily,<\/p>\n

Quickly.<\/p>\n

\u2019Cause ya know,<\/p>\n

I\u2019m always hoping to gander across something to do.<\/p>\n

However,<\/p>\n

After accepting said invitation …<\/p>\n

I happened across some information that My Function was known by some who were going to be in attendance.<\/p>\n

And these particular some I really didn\u2019t now that well,<\/p>\n

So I had no clue as to whether or not they were Friendlies.<\/p>\n

Though in due consideration of how I became aware previously referenced some had called My Function,<\/p>\n

I was suddenly concerned about attending said social event,<\/p>\n

Since at the social event …<\/p>\n

With the exception of a few very trusted Friendlies,<\/p>\n

I was stealth.<\/p>\n

And being unstealthed in this particular social situation …<\/p>\n

Would very well likely not be a good thing,<\/p>\n

To my safety and all.<\/p>\n

And that totally sucks.<\/p>\n

I hate it.<\/p>\n

Now in the last month or so …<\/p>\n

I\u2019ve been "outed" three times,<\/p>\n

In different social situations.<\/p>\n

Never by friends or people that know me,<\/p>\n

But apparently by people I don\u2019t know …<\/p>\n

That do know of me.<\/p>\n

Now I understand that happens …<\/p>\n

As oft recognizied before,<\/p>\n

It’s a nice gossipy thing to talk about at times,<\/p>\n

I suppose.<\/p>\n

And living the whole woodworking life that I do,<\/p>\n

I\u2019m bound to be in settings where there are some that know and some that don\u2019t know …<\/p>\n

My Function.<\/p>\n

Krossover is inevitable.<\/p>\n

But the three "outing" incidents I just referenced,<\/p>\n

Even though I try to give these unknown outers the benefit of the doubt,<\/p>\n

Are really hard to construe in any way other than …<\/p>\n

Mean.<\/p>\n

Plus, there was the collateral result, <\/p>\n

Which I so hope was unintended …<\/p>\n

Of putting my safety at a huge risk.<\/p>\n

And in one of those outings,<\/p>\n

It was a really …<\/p>\n

HUGE risk.<\/p>\n

And in none of those situations,<\/p>\n

Other than I guess just me being there,<\/p>\n

Did I do anything to warrant these outers\u2019 disclosures.<\/p>\n

Granted …<\/p>\n

I\u2019m friendly, somewhat outgoing, and …<\/p>\n

Attempt not to be rude to guys that try to make a run at me.<\/p>\n

But,<\/p>\n

Even those guys making a run at me,<\/p>\n

Get klued in pretty early,<\/p>\n

That they aren\u2019t going to get anywhere.<\/p>\n

Heck,<\/p>\n

It\u2019s probably been close to a year since I\u2019ve let anyone other than a friend,<\/p>\n

Even buy me a drink.<\/p>\n

(Editor\u2019s Note 1:<\/strong> That really only applies to local guys, if I’m outta town, I welcome free drinks and truth be told, have welcomed them many times in the past year.)<\/p>\n

(Editor\u2019s Note 2:<\/strong> Another exception is if a shot is already poured or beer opened and it’s the bartender bringing it to me. Then sometimes I’ll accept the gift, though I do think even most of those recently I end up returning it to the sender by personal delivery, of course, with a nice no-thank-you, coached in a lie of some sort to protect their ego, but let them know it’d be best if that offered it to someone else.)<\/p>\n

(Editor\u2019s Note 3:<\/strong> Friends … please note that, as always, I do appreciatively accept free drinks from you !!! \"-)\")<\/p>\n

And it\u2019s not like anyone has seen me on a date with someone they know …<\/p>\n

BECAUSE I DON\u2019T EVEN DATE LOCALLY.<\/p>\n

Which way sucks too,<\/p>\n

But it\u2019s a concession I make to be able to live in my hometown.<\/p>\n

Though anyways,<\/p>\n

All that is just background …<\/p>\n

To let you know that at the current time,<\/p>\n

I\u2019m quite sensitive to safety concerns when I\u2019m out and about …<\/p>\n

And the very real possibility of being the recipient of a surprise outing,<\/p>\n

Where I find myself suddenly in a precarious situation,<\/p>\n

By myself,<\/p>\n

With no Friendlies around.<\/p>\n

So …<\/p>\n

I was more than a tad bit apprehensive when I became aware that this particular social event to which I was invited …,<\/p>\n

Was also going to be attended by some with knowledge aforethought.<\/p>\n

And I did revisit in my mind,<\/p>\n

Whether or not I should feign an excuse to unaccept the invitation.<\/p>\n

I spoke with My Agent about it,<\/p>\n

"Cause I always try to make sure someone knows where I am going to be,<\/p>\n

In case I was unable to return,<\/p>\n

And My Agent was pretty adamant,<\/p>\n

“Make up an excuse !<\/em>“<\/p>\n

I think the words “you dumbshit<\/em>” were also added. \"-)\"<\/p>\n

Of course I listened to the advice being spoken,<\/p>\n

But chose not to follow it.<\/p>\n

And I\u2019m not sure it was for a good reason.<\/p>\n

I\u2019ve placed myself in settings in the past,<\/p>\n

Risky of sorts,<\/p>\n

Where I have been very concerned about my well-being.<\/p>\n

But have pushed through anyways,<\/p>\n

And that\u2019s because of one of my great issues …<\/p>\n

You see,<\/p>\n

Is that I have a greater concern than just risk to my safety. <\/p>\n

I don\u2019t want the first time I chicken out from doing something,<\/p>\n

Because of fear of reaction to My Function,<\/p>\n

To be the start of the long slippery slope of chickening out,<\/p>\n

Hiding in the Amy-cave,<\/p>\n

Every time the nerves krop up.<\/p>\n

I\u2019ve went through a lot to get to the point of being able to live,<\/p>\n

And I don\u2019t want cowardice to be the reason why I don\u2019t take advantage of life.<\/p>\n

I\u2019m not ashamed of who I am,<\/p>\n

What I am,<\/p>\n

And I\u2019m not about to phucking hide from the world.<\/p>\n

But sometimes,<\/p>\n

That does seem to make me push myself at times,<\/p>\n

Unwisely.<\/p>\n

Though I also know that at times in the past,<\/p>\n

There were occasions when in addition to refusing to hide in the Amy-cave,<\/p>\n

I didn\u2019t really care if something happened to me or not,<\/p>\n

Which might either mean I got a cheap thrill from risk-taking (my predilection for discrete intimate moments in quasi-public places seems to support this theory \";-)\"), <\/p>\n

I had some sort of self-loathing about my transsexualism leading me to feel receiving an assault was deserved, or …<\/p>\n

I simply just didn\u2019t care.<\/p>\n

Personally I think it\u2019s that I simply just didn\u2019t care,<\/p>\n

But who knows,<\/p>\n

I do try to analyze things from all angles …<\/p>\n

Myself included. \"-)\"<\/p>\n

I also know,<\/p>\n

That I might be somewhat desensitized to a risk in which I place myself,<\/p>\n

\u2019Cause after you\u2019ve done the sex change thing,<\/p>\n

Well,<\/p>\n

A lot of things that might have seemed scary in the past,<\/p>\n

Really feel pretty much nbd.<\/p>\n

Regardless,<\/p>\n

I attended the event,<\/p>\n

Without incident.<\/p>\n

Whew!<\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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