I’m sort of stumped …<\/p>\n
As I seem to have different topics in my mind,<\/p>\n
That I just can’t seem to work my way through …<\/p>\n
To make sense.<\/p>\n
I want to talk about the “higher standards” of girlness t-girls are often expected to attain and maintain as compared to natal girls …<\/p>\n
I want to talk about how hard it is for me at times now when I’m faced with being reminded of my t-ness …<\/p>\n
I want to talk about despite how I understand the inherent human desire to simply things to the most basic of categories … Yes, No; True, False; 1, 0; Male, Female … I don’t feel I can be simplied so easily to an Either\/Or …<\/p>\n
I want to talk about how I am proud and content to be a t-girl, how I also consider myself simply a girl, yet how I don’t think of myself as ever being the same as a natal girl …<\/p>\n
I want to talk about how dirty I feel seeking comfort in the kindness of strangers …<\/p>\n
And,<\/p>\n
I want to talk about how I miss hearing nice things.<\/p>\n
All of this is in my head and scattered over three or four or ten posts.<\/p>\n
I suppose someday I should let you all into how I punch out my posts …<\/p>\n
My stream of conscious process of keying …<\/p>\n
And if upon finishing whatever junk I’m typing,<\/p>\n
If it doesn’t adequately convey what I’m feeling …<\/p>\n
And help me deal with what I’m feeling …<\/p>\n
I’ll just start all over with another post.<\/p>\n
Anyways …<\/p>\n
That’s sorta what is about to be posted,<\/p>\n
As soon as I figure out how to write it in such a way to make me feel better.<\/p>\n
In the meantime,<\/p>\n