Editor’s Block
I’m sort of stumped …
As I seem to have different topics in my mind,
That I just can’t seem to work my way through …
To make sense.
I want to talk about the “higher standards” of girlness t-girls are often expected to attain and maintain as compared to natal girls …
I want to talk about how hard it is for me at times now when I’m faced with being reminded of my t-ness …
I want to talk about despite how I understand the inherent human desire to simply things to the most basic of categories … Yes, No; True, False; 1, 0; Male, Female … I don’t feel I can be simplied so easily to an Either/Or …
I want to talk about how I am proud and content to be a t-girl, how I also consider myself simply a girl, yet how I don’t think of myself as ever being the same as a natal girl …
I want to talk about how dirty I feel seeking comfort in the kindness of strangers …
And,
I want to talk about how I miss hearing nice things.
All of this is in my head and scattered over three or four or ten posts.
I suppose someday I should let you all into how I punch out my posts …
My stream of conscious process of keying …
And if upon finishing whatever junk I’m typing,
If it doesn’t adequately convey what I’m feeling …
And help me deal with what I’m feeling …
I’ll just start all over with another post.
Anyways …
That’s sorta what is about to be posted,
As soon as I figure out how to write it in such a way to make me feel better.
In the meantime,
I did find this rather amusing,
But of course,
I have a demented sense of humor ! 🙂
(On a side note, the claims by the guy seem suspect to me.)
Well … I’m not disciplined or skilled enough to write fiction. Besides, just my nutty real life adventures are much better than anything I could think up !! 🙂
you know, aims,
you should think more about writing fiction;
i feel very often pretty much what you describe;
in my own case, i don’t know if its LD
or PTSD symptom…
i have huge trouble discerning–let alone developing–a thesis…
i can’t get my brain to arrange thoughts logically;
but in fiction, logic is not all that important…
Some days are harder then others. Some thoughts are more difficult to express then others. You do a great job, no…an unbeliveable job, of making those thoughts come alive.
I’m here if ya wanna talk. Much love to you sister.
Makena
Amy,
I find your posts the most interesting, challenging, and entertaining of any I read. You have intelligence, great wit, a clever way of expressing yourself, and wonderful things to express. The days you don’t post are down days for me. I am disappointed. I tell myself, “why doesn’t she write faster?”
I think you know yourself much better than you realize, but sometimes I wonder if you know how much people love you through this site? You brighten so many lives.
You are a beautiful woman. Don’t ever forget it.
Amy,
I find your posts the most interesting, challenging, and entertaining of any I read. You have intelligence, great wit, a clever way of expressing yourself, and wonderful things to express. The days you don’t post are down days for me. I am disappointed. I tell myself, “why doesn’t she write faster?”
I think you know yourself much better than you realize, but sometimes I wonder if you know how much people love you through this site? You brighten so many lives.
You are a beautiful woman. Don’t ever forget it.
Amy,
Be yourself….Your personality and approach to life is very,very “kwell”. Don’t ever think you are less than the person you know you are or wanting to be. Your great looking,funny as hell and most important of all honest with yourself. The people who are too closed minded to see that have the personality and IQ of a pile of dog doo. Hang in there and remember the people who know you really love your contributions to their daily existance no matter what you are doing.:)
Amy:
This is actually a very thoughtful post. The issues you raise (other than pharmacists being unable to tell testosterone from estrogen!) are ones that I grapple with everyday. They don’t really have any answers. They are just conditions of our existence.
You’re pretty, vivacious, out-going, guys like you. So why aren’t you hearing nice things?
Ellie says hello.
Jenn
Thanks Clio !! That’s nice to hear. 🙂
Yeah … I agree … that’s exactly what make me question the story too … I’m not sure I ever got the hot flashes/flushes … I thought the ‘mones help prevent that. And breast tissue after a few months … yeah right. Definitely nuisance.
Amy – your post is quite a philosophical one, I don’t think any of us can apply Boolean logic to something as complicated as a sentient being. Neither you nor the rest of us can be simplified – we have consciousness, we have free thought, we are aware. I donÓ´ think thereÓ³ anything simple about us at all.
I think you underrate your ability to convey what exactly you are feeling – you have spoken (literally) volumes in this post, you’ve pondered questions and thoughts that we all think but have given them form on your forum – far from being stumped…..I’d say what you wrote was quite lucid – it made me think. Thanks:)
BTW – I think the story about Mr. “I got the wrong scrip from Wal-Mart and I started getting hot flashes and my body began to change” is a ball of crap….okay…how many girls here have had hot flashes (shouldn’t that be flushes) after taking meds for a short period of time, initially, how many here have had them? I haven’t and I’ve not heard of anyone else experiencing this either….the guy is a nuisance case.