Cinco De … Whataday

Holy krap !!

Yesterday turned out … totally unexpectedly,

To be an incredibly demanding, stressful, eventful, and …

Pivotal day in the transition of our heroine,

Amy-wan Kenobi.

Hehe πŸ™‚

So much transpired yesterday,

That my brain feels like it’s going to explode because I’ve got so much to write and remember …

From which to learn.

Now of course,

I knew in advance yesterday was going to be somewhat special for me,

Because obviously,

I do have the ability to control a fair amount of things in my life …

And well,

Without really telling anyone about it …

I had planned for it to be a bit different than all my other days.

I do things like that. πŸ™‚

Sooooooo … how was yesterday a bit different than others?

Well, you see,

Yesterday was …

The first time I went into the office as me …

1.) During the day;

2.) On a workweek;

3.) That wasn’t Spring Break;

4.) When plenty of others were around;

5.) Just to work and do my thang !! πŸ™‚

Yeah, yeah, yeah …

I know,

About phreaking time !!

Now granted, I’ve been going into the office after hours for months, going in on the weekend for much much longer, and this past Spring Break, when everyone in the phreaking city was gone, I was going into the office as me.

And let’s be real, it’s not like I don’t spend most of my life as me already … I do.

But I had been holding off making active appearances in the office because going into the office boy wasn’t that much of an irritant for me in light of the comfort I received in reducing the risk of unintended disclosures.

Going to work in the middle of the week, on a normal business day, with all the activity on the streets, in the building and in our offices … increased dramatically the opportunity someone I know or someone we don’t need to know would …

See me, recognize me, figure it out.

Granted,

I’ve been spending less and less time in the office during the week as I’ve been reconfiguring my practice from courtroom driven litigation to civil transactional work,

In fact, most of the time I have been only going into the office on days when I am also going to be in court, so it’s not like I had much of a choice yet on those days.

But finally,

On Wednesday,

Cinco De Mayo,

My docket had finally grooved to the point where I have days and days and days and days and days in between required remaining court appearances.

Sweet.

Now true,

In today’s world of electronic capabilities,

There’s no work that I do in my work office,

That I can’t do in my home office.

But still,

I tend to be a somewhat social being at times,

And just working from home doesn’t satisfy my need to be around others.

So instead of doing the not going into the office thing and just working from home,

I figured “screw it”,

I’m going to go into the office and work from there.

Despite the risk of the nosey, tailor-dude that has a shop in the basement of the building and lurks outside to find things to gossip about with others at the coffee shop, recognizing me so he can have something to talk about …

Despite the risk of the courier service regulars who are in our lobby and offices throughout the day recognizing me and having something to talk about …

Despite the risk of someone on the streets that I know, which happens all the time, recognizing me and having something to talk about …

Despite the risk of any of the people in the building, with whom I am often friendly and always willing to say ‘hola’, hold a door for or help with packages they are carrying, recognizing me and having something to talk about …

Despite the risk of someone I know just unexpectedly stopping by the offices for any of a variety reasons, recognizing me and having something to talk about …

Despite all the possible ramifications that could result, adverse ramifications I have been trying hard to minimize and control as I have sought to balance my need to address my personal issues with my commitment to my clients and business partners, that could ensue if someone recognizes me and has something to talk about.

Yeah …

Despite all that,

It was finally time.

My transition has become much more complex? *shrug* ….

Once I decided not to run away and start a new life elsewhere,

And instead try to figure out a way to give sticking it out around here a chance …

To take advantage of the amazing support, friendship and love I’ve received from those important to me.

In fact, there’s a huge bit of foreshadowing here kids,

As the whole “should I stay or should I go” question plays a pretty big significant role in the upcoming Episode III – the gospels of Amy-wan Kenobi. (When it comes to this particular decision, I’ve always been an advocate of the flight option in the Fight or Flight query, so what I’m doing here is really contrary to the advice I’ve been giving myself all along. Yikes ! :))

Anyways, the events that took place on Cinco de Mayo …

Are a perfect example of how great life can be when you’re able to be yourself and still hang out with those important to you,

How stressful, frustrating and anxious trying to do such can actually be,

And how much one can grow as a person, when with the help of friends, such challenges are faced and met.

The following cinco Cinco posts cover the day.

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10 Comments

  1. Your crazy than me.

    I entered ” I am in the end of freenzy/ can you help me” in the search engine and your site was in first place as far as google goes.

    You are……. google weiner.

    Please reply someday, I am lonely. My wife dislikes me.

    Please reply with a donation.

    rags

  2. I know this is a bit tardy but…

    Yayayay!!! Aims congrats! Whoohooo! Best wishes on this next chapter in your adventure.

    /Amber/

  3. Woo woo! Way to go Chica!!!

    Question for ya? Just how long ago did you go into the office on the weekend to avoid the crowds? (Which is what I did a few weeks ago *sigh*)

  4. Halle-freakin-lullah!

    I knew it! And I am so glad you stayed and didn’t do the flight option. It frankly never made sense to me. I continue to think that most of the folks you interact with in the court system and elsewhere in practice, have long ago figured out what was up. Now when Amy arrives in toto, they may be curious for a bit, and will then move on to the point where you are just plain Amy Preston, lawyer.

    I am truly inspired by you, and as a fellow trial lawyer, I know you’ll eventually be back in court as Amy and with much more conviction being the person you really are, rather than having to come at it from your Joe personna.

    Congrats and keep it up!

    Marcia

  5. SEEEE! It wasn;t so bad! ‘Bout time, don’tcha think hon? YOU might think you still look like a guy, but to everyone else…well…NOT!

    Yep, its gonna be food for the rumor mill. But it will pass…believe me. Us T women just aren’t that interesting anymore.

    Makenna

  6. Congratulations on your big day! It must have been really great to present in the office as your true self. Being a trial lawyer myself, I have been following your journal. Practicing in this conservative profession (which I love)in a conservative area has been the biggest hurdle to me transitioning. Hopefully, I will resolve that fear soon so that I can be who I truly am too. Anyway, I just want you to know that I find your journal truly inspiring.

  7. Congratulations! Congratulations! Congratulations!

    Welcome to the first day of your life proper.

    Bon chance.

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