Post Day 14 – Leftovers

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Not much to report really. Just logging another pic for the progress report. I have a cold which is making me feel worse than I would like, but that has nothing to do with my ffs. Other than that, not much has changed.

With the removal of the staples in my head, my headaches appear to have finally taken a leave of absence !! Thank gawd ! πŸ™‚ I still have quite a bit of swelling in my face, in fact, an amazing quantity of swelling, especially around my eyes, new nose, its tip and in the lower part of my face. Though the fat grafts in my lips are reducing as expected. I’m definitely going to want to get another graft there as I like it when they are at their lucious best. Per Dr. Z, they take a couple of hits of fat as they lose about 70% of their impact each time. And remember, after my begging and pleading, he went light on my first hit of fat so as not to call too much attention to them too quickly. A decision of mine I am now regretting, but one easily rectified. I should have just listened to Dr. Z.

The hairline incision is starting to subside, still clearly noticable, but nothing like it was earlier, and leaving me confident it won’t be long until I’m the only one that notices it.

I have a remaining bruise under my right eye, one on my left cheek and fairly sizable ones under and above my left eye. All have diminished significantly, but my left eye, the one that was droppy before and required the most work, clearly shows the most after-effects from surgery.

Dr. Z called me on Wednesday to check in on me. Still seems totally wild for the surgeon to take the time to actually be following up with me, but I think it’s great. He spent a good 10-15 minutes with me, going over the same ol’, same ol’ … knowing he has to pound some things into my head … and answered all of my questions fully.

I suffered from what I would call Post-Surgery Blues for about 5 days, never disappointed with the results of my ffs, but bemoaning my station in life and what I was going to do about things. That feeling seemed to have left me around Friday afternoon and has yet to return !! Yay !! πŸ™‚

As you can see from my pics, I’m really not doing anything to hide the after effects from surgery. No make-up, no shading, no angling. Even when I go out and about, quite often I’m going sans make-up and still find most people seeming to perceive me as female. It’s been rather amusing to me as guys have gotten suddenly a lot nicer to me … smiling … saying hi … letting me have cuts in line … while women, when I’m in complete dressed down mode, don’t even acknowledge my existence … apparently just being a woman without make-up makes me less interesting … yeah right, clearly they don’t know me !! πŸ˜‰

So two weeks out … quick summary, I couldn’t be happier with the results of my surgery. I wish I would have listened to Dr. Z about my lips, but at least I listened to him halfway. Excluding the passing issue, I’m much, much more comfortable with myself. My own mental image of my new look is starting to be burned into my own mind … I think it was on Day 10 that I saw my reflection in the mirror and it was what I expected to see !! πŸ™‚ Emotionally, I figure I’m 90% recovered and almost back in charge of myself. Physically, I still tire somewhat easily, but within 10 days of surgery was already back at work. Amazing. πŸ™‚

As far as presentation goes, androgynous seems to be more difficult to pull off, no biggie, because that means even in lazy Amy-mode, I’m passing as female. I’m not appearing to have a problem pulling off the guy thing around people that know me, but I’m finding that guy-mode passing around people that don’t know me has become more of a challenge, despite wearing guy clothes. FFS alone does not make one pass as female, but my body language, movements and attitude, combined with the face, seem to let me pass as female very comfortably now, even with the bruises and scar remnants. I have messed up more than a few times, forgetting what mode I’m in and confusing all, including myself. I suspect that’ll abate when I stop doing boy period. Something that might be sooner than I had planned.

Oh yeah … and two days ago … my appetite returned. Big time !! πŸ™‚

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2 Comments

  1. Jiminy christmas Amy, your hair looks nice with the revised color. What were you complaining about?

    OTOH, maybe needlessly complaining about your hair is a good sign. It means you’ve got nothing important to complain about. πŸ˜‰

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