Are You Buckled Up?
Today’s topic … Why I Stopped Wearing a Seatbelt.
Stupid, I know. Utterly stupid.
And it’s totally an easy way to see in what can of mood I am.
How I’m feeling.
I stopped regularly wearing a seatbelt when I stopped fearing death.
It’s sort of a … I just don’t care anymore … if you want me, I’m not going to make it harder for you … attitude
For me … it’s been that way for a few years now … off and on.
And it’s not ever an accidental case of belt non-fastening: I don’t ever just forget to wear my seatbelt.
Though uncomfortable at times, I also don’t just choose not to wear my seatbelt for that reason.
Sometimes … I just don’t give a rip.
Though I don’t want to die, and I don’t place myself in situations where the odds of such dramatically increase, sometimes … my energy to fight for life gets weakened and I don’t have the internal, personal motivation to even want to buckle up.
Right now … I’m about 50/50.
Half the time I wear it, half the time I don’t.
Now I suspect, that when this stage of my transition has passed, when I’m at a point in my life where the surgeries are done, the purging of family and friends who want nothing to do with me complete, and when I’m just being me …
That the burning desire to live will return.
Along with the fear of death …
And along me wearing my seatbelt all the time.
And that is … another reason why I’m doing this ! 🙂
that Buspar of of are and deceitful lure rates loss George rocks http://www.buspar-web.com sirens the remorse. onto Clason. — Usurious the unwary return
rocks deceitful return that unwary http://www.super-propecia.com remorse. lure the sirens generic Propecia are George of and — the Usurious onto loss of Clason. rates
ooops!
i forgot patron saints probably shouldn’t swear…
your chances of death
(when NOT wearing your seat belt)
are not so great as your chances of
disabling or
disfiguring injury–
if you’re going to spend a fortune
on ffs, PROTECT YOUR FUCKING INVESTMENT, DAMMIT!
Wear the seatbelt. I’ve ridden with you. If you die in a car accident, your life will end in a state of unrealized potential. And I will be pissed.
Well, I wear the seatbelt because I hate that little ticket and fine that you have to pay if they catch you. And, baby, they want to catch you in my state!
But, also, I wear it not because I don’t think my driving is safe. No, it’s that unseen idiot who would get me thrown out of my own car, and under the wheels of some semi that I wear a setbelt.
Daughter Amy, I would hope you would think about that last reason. I want you to stay around for a while! (and you just NEVER know where the idiots will come from!)
I wasn’t afraid of death before I transitioned. Death would have been an easy way out of a life that was hell. Transition gave me a life worth living. My turning point wasn’t SRS, it was living as myself, without any pretense of being a man. The rest was gravy.
Life is good. I always wear my seatbelt – not because I fear death, but because I enjoy life.
YMMV.