Where everyone knows your name

I really like people knowing me ….. I like walking down the street and having someone who knows me honk and wave …. I like seeing people I know in the mwall …… I like walking from the parking garage and having someone yell my name to say ‘hi’ and then just engage in some mindless chatter while we walk to our respective office buildings

It happens to me a great deal …..

even though I live in a moderate-sized community in excess of 500,000 people ….. I have my own little subset of a community …..

people know my name …. my dry cleaner, my banker, where I get my Chinese food, my favorite McD’s ……. they know my name, I know their name ……

my favorite restaurants know my regular order …..

and I really like that ……. I’m sad about losing that soon ….. and I will ….. I know I will ….. if I stayed here …… I’d be ostricized, in best case, for but a short while, in worst case ….. permanently …… but I am definitely going to lose that sense of people knowing me …… because I don’t plan on being around to be ostricized ….. I intend to leave here……. the plan is to leave ….. soon …… have facial feminization surgery ….. recover ……. and get a job …… working for someone else …… temp is good at first …… but soon thereafter ……… I’ll be making a decision on whether to return at all …… and if I was a gambling girl …. I’d have to put my mula on the not returning ….. at least to the immediate community ….. why? well ….. well …… even though it’s my little subset of a community ….. I know a lot of people …… I’d only return to the area if my family and friends wanted me here ….. otherwise ….. I can create my own little subset of a different community …… where everyone will know my name ……. and not first think of my old boy name (granted ….. they might still think “transsexual” …. but you know what’s weird …… even people who interact with me in Amy mode, who know I’m a transsexual …. if they only know of me as Amy ….. they all seem to find it hard to believe I can pull of boy mode convincingly, yeah, I’m obviously talking about non-t types, t’s know we can fool practically anyone …… but it’s different that being thought of as Joe Hairdy first, then as a girl ….. make sense ??? probably not …. that’s ‘k …… I’m not reading this for typos yet ….. so it’s probably completely confusing ……. right now …… I’m actually preparing for a jury pick tomorrow morning ….. this one involves a pool table, a pool cue, a dildo and a large quantity of mj ….. remind me to tell you about it sometime ….. gives whole new meaning to ….. blue ball …. corner pocket.