The Cold Reality of Being TS

There is someone I know …. not personally …. only over the web ….. and it’s been years since we’ve actually even corresponded via e-mail or chat …… so long ago that we were both known by different names back then ….. but she’s a geekgal ….. and has always maintained wonderful websites ….. so when she had moved forward in her journey, much faster than I did ….. I just kept up with her ….. by visiting her site ….. and being so happy for her.

She is blessed with beauty, one of the most beautiful women I know ……. and an incredible personality ….. and though she suffered from transsexualism ….. she met life’s challenges, had friends, was adored by men, and seemed to be able to just start living and have fun !!

But over the last several years, I noticed that all references to ever being TS had gradually disappeared from her sites ……

She was going stealth it appeared …… or at least seriously woodwork ……. Gawd, I hope it works out for her …… she certainly deserves it …… and is so beautiful ….. one would never know unless told …… by her or someone else …….

So this morning ….. I was just surfing around ….. and thought I’d check in on her …… hoping that she had posted something ….. because I know she’s been thinking of closing down her sites altogether ….. and I so look forward to watching her grow …… and then I was hit with an announcement she posted …..

I won’t recite it here …. there is no need for that …. suffice to say that it sounds as if she fell in love with someone who didn’t know her past and didn’t take it well when they eventually found out ….. I don’t know how they found out …. it doesn’t matter …… what matters is that apparently this person now hates her …. and not only does she feel she can never make things right, but I suspect she’s heartbroken as well ……

She concludes her message by stating that she’s learned to be more truthful to herself and others ….. and that all who thought of her as a role model or a great person were sadly mistaken.

I’m numb ….. I want to go to her, give her a hug, and listen as much as she needs someone to listen ….. I can only hope that someone is there for her …..

She’s been a role model to me ….. and more ….. she’s a success story …. a transsexual success story ….. and I hope she doesn’t forget that because of this set-back.

The cold reality of transsexualism is that once a transsexual, you are always labeled a transsexual …. you might survive it ….. and I hope to ….. but you never can shake the label ….. and this is a prime example ….. with her you’d never know ….. whether you were seeing her, talking to her, visiting her residence, watching her from a distance or holding her intimately …… the uninformed would never know unless told or unless misstatements were pieced together …. she wasn’t active and as far as I know, even present in the tg community ….. and yet …. after all this time …… though there wasn’t anything transsexual about her but a past ….. she was relabeled a transsexual …… and some lives will never be the same because of it.

It certainly makes one think.

She’ll most likely never see this post ….. and if she did …. she’d have no clue who I was and may not even know I’m writing about her …… but as you finish reading this post ….. please send a warm, friendly thought to her ….. a great person and a role model.